So I know this is a totally stupid way to come back from such a long blogging break… but it made me laugh out loud while sitting at my desk.

Thanks for the mid-day comedy Jac! 🙂

If a packet hits a pocket on a socket on a port, and the bus is interrupted at a very last resort, and the access of the memory makes your floppy disk abort, then the socket packet pocket has an error to report.

If your cursor finds a menu item followed by a dash, and the double-clicking icon puts your window in the trash, and your data is corrupted cause the index doesn’t hash, then your situation’s hopeless and your system’s gonna crash!

If the label on the cable on the table at your house, says the network is connected to the button on your mouse, but your packets want to tunnel to another protocol, that’s repeatedly rejected by the printer down the hall.

And your screen is all distorted by the side effects of gauss, so your icons in the window are as wavy as a souse; then you may as well reboot and go out with a bang, ‘cuz sure as I’m a poet, the sucker’s gonna hang

When the copy on your floppy’s getting sloppy in the disk, and the macro code instructions are causing unnecessary risk, then you’ll have to flash the memory and you’ll want to RAM your ROM, and then quickly turn off the computer and be sure to tell your Mom!

This might only be funny to computer people. It made me laugh anyway.

I’ve spent the better part of the last week sort of in mental state of hibernation. I’ve been working, then going home. Then back to work and so on. It’s sort of been an uncomfortable blind routine. It hasn’t been to the point of what I define as a ‘rut’, but a slump for sure. It’s not something that happens to me very often. It seems to come when I’m not working hard enough.

I’ve had no events since our Christmas trip, so life sort of feels dull… that might be the start of it. But I do have events coming up so my mind has a place it could go. There’s some neat creative things to keep me busy, but not a lot. They are big events, but nothing that I would consider terribly flashy or difficult to produce. I’m guessing that when I’m back into my routine of back-to-back gigs I’ll feel a little more at home.

The hardest part about this little slump has been the timing, or rather the coincidental timing of the same sort of slump (though I can’t speak for her) in Janey’s life. Usually when one of us hits an obstacle, the other is quite good at becoming the support system to make it through. Some times that works better then others, but overall it’s been a great deal. Neither of us have immediate family close, so we are really each other’s family down here in CA. Anyway, it just usually seems like when there’s a bit of a down time in one of our lives, the other is there with a supporting hand. It’s really nice. But what happens when both supporters need help at once? Tension.

Here is my theory…

Both have the desire to help AND be helped at the same time. The rub is that when you’re speaking about matters of emotion and mental state, a person who is seeking any sort of a crutch can’t be expected to be a solid support for someone with the same problem. If there was ever a time for the phrase “blind leading the blind” that would be it!

Now reigning this all into real life, how does this pertain to me? It’s all about how life is feeling. You know when things just feel off/disconnected/strange but you can’t explain exactly why? I know most people feel it. It’s when there is a thousand symptoms of life problems on the tip of your brain ready to be unleashed on the next person to ask how your doing, but none of them seem to be the real root of what’s bugging you. If you fixed any one of them all the others would still exist, and in most cases more would pop up. Well folks, the reality is that when this happens there is almost always one root cause for the entire mess. There is one doosie of a something that is lodging itself somewhere up in that noggin of yours, and it’s just spending it’s time pissing everyone around it off.

When life feels good it’s hard to imagine anything could bring you down. And if you forced yourself to think about it you’d be sure that you could handle it. I know that’s how I think. When life feels good I’m quite certain that my level head would win out in a game against my emotions. But when push comes to shove the logical brain heads for the back seat to buckle up and there can be some nasty business ahead. Don’t get me wrong… I wouldn’t say that I’m ruled by my emotions. I would, however, say that my logical side loosens the leash a bit.

In the end I think it comes down to self. Even if you have a good crutch. Even if there are people around you that would love to take your burdens. Even though you’d like to let them bear your burdens… it all comes down to self. If you can’t do the hard work and get out of that rut yourself, you can’t hope to be a good supporter of someone else.

So what’s the point of all this? Nothing. It’s my blog and I’ll write what I want. I don’t have a solution, I just have love. I’m happy with my life an the people in it. I want them to be happy have the same love for me. Now I’m getting out of my rut to go give my girlfriend a kiss. (and maybe some flowers)

We’re 4 days into 2006 and I still haven’t said Happy New Year to my three faithful readers!  Please forgive me, and I hope you will continue to visit and read my ramblings throughout this wonderful year.

2005 was incredibly eventful for me.  I did lots of cool things and met a lot of cool people. Some for work, some not.  Work itself has been pretty amazing.  Producing events for a wonderful company is a dream come true, and the thought that I’ve been doing it for more then a year now really astounds me.  It’s bitter-sweet though.  Through my move into new adventures I’ve had to pass on some of the old adventures that I loved so much.  The Candlelight processional came and went, Rose Parade bands all shuffled through the park without me, even Santa Clause returned to the north pole before I could go out and say hello.  Oh well…  I suppose it was all meant to be.

So lets get back up to speed.  When Janey and returned from Utah we realized we hadn’t made any plans at all for New Years Eve.  I had just assumed I would be working, but as it turned out I wasn’t needed.  So Janey accepted an invitation to go over to her cousin’s house where some other family and friends were gathering.

It was a nice little get together, though Janey and I are both certain that we would throw a much better party.  I’m sure someday in the future we will live together in a big enough place to throw a party. 🙂

So I guess that really brings us up to now…  the only other big event that I can think of coming up is the birthday of my wonderful girlfriend!  She was born on Jan. 5th…  That’s right, tomorrow is my girl’s birthday.  We’re planning on celebrating a little later this year (next week).  She’s been wanting to go down to some pier where you choose your own fish from the market and they cook it.  I’m not even sure where it is… but it’s her day and her celebrations, so I’ll make it happen.

So that’s about it for now.  Thanks for reading.  And I’ll be back soon.

R.